Katherine Henson, penning as k.e. She self-published her first book, “wildflowers: the first collection” in 2016. Katherine has been writing for as long as she can remember, and it is both her love language and preferred choice of communication. For Katherine, writing has been a way to escape and discover; through body image issues, depression, anxiety, and loss Katherine has used her words as a way to be honest with herself, while also helping others understand that they are not alone.

fear can't save us

fear can't save us // katherinehenson.com

The only way to get rid of a shadow, is to turn off the lights. To stop running from the darkness, and face what you fear, head on.

Fear often becomes the crutch we didn't know we relied on.

We have reached the final notch of our rope, but too far from the top. Fear reminds us that we cannot finish on our own while we desperately cling to the last bit of strength. It whispers we have little choice. 

We have the way out...

A Savior.

We don't want to let go, we don't want to fall, we don't want to let our shaky heart fail. No. We want to feel fresh air in our lungs, fresh hope in our heart; we want to be upheld by His righteous right hand, we want our weaknesses to open up the way for God's strength to be felt. 

so if we have a way out, what stops us?

Fear knows there is a way out - but it rather invade our veins and souls with messages of doubt and unanswered questions.

The closer we get to God, the more fear cuts in. New fears now; fears that we will be left here; left here with no answer to the pleading cries for help. Fears that ring  there is no reason to keep fighting.

Fear doesn't wish to save us, it wishes to slowly drown us. Because before we give way for His strength, before we allow ourselves to feel His hope, fear calls us to cry out two simple words: "why me".

Before we even surrender, we plead for an answer to this not-so-simple plea. Before we can even believe that there is a shred of hope, we desperately cry for some clarity; we have nothing left, we have nothing more, we have not one bit more to hope for but the answer to a plea - or so fear says. Rather than dropping the weight that perches on our shoulders, rather than grasping for what is right in front of us, we ask more questions. 

Fear wants us to feel abandoned. To feel as if there could never be hope if there is never a big show to announce it.

We don't care that there is a Hand reaching down to pull us up. We don't care that there is a Savior Whom already promised us safety. We don't care that we are right there, so close, an inch  to the finish. Because we want clarity first. Even when all we need is to cry out for Him, we want to cry out for more answers, more signs, more understanding. We want a bolt of lightening, a double rainbow, a sudden epiphany. We want the show.

But we don't get those.
We won't get those answers. 

So we let the fear keep on winning.

Here is our clarity: we don't need clarity, we need Jesus. 

While fear continues to do everything in it's power to keep us from hope, God continues to do everything in His power to bring you and me closer to redemption. 

We cannot be cured of fear- no matter what is whispers in our shadows.

God will continue to show up when we find ourselves clinging to that last notch - time and time again.

me not her